is destiny beyond beyonce?

ive been gay for as long as the earth started to turn.
though i dont want to be gay, i really could not do anything cause that is where all my nerves pops out. i cant and i wont go beyond my destiny, if my blood wants to be gay and so be it. but hey my life is not like a chocolate always stored on a pale box tied in a red ribbon appealing to be so optimistic and shouts "hey! buy me ! buy me!. i have a penis and yes i have a penis- oh com'on i do want to have a son and call it "junior" though that would sound so gay.
Having a penis is so disgusting, i hate the way it dangles when i wore my bacons, i hate the way it itch, the way my skinny jeans bulge,the feeling of early morning toast.it all sucks - my penis sucks!. but i either dont like having a vagina,why? well aside fron the reason that it bleeds to often, it also looks like a calla lily with certain cactus in between uh.......So i hate vaginas and im afraid of them that leaves me with no choice than to work with my .....Penis. on a brighter side i find my penis well enough....that an awkward statement,erase that on your mind.

the truth is female wants sex as much as men does

thats a pretty line from the u.s tv series glee.the awful thing is they did not include us.

then allow me to rephrase that.

the truth is female and gay wants sex to as much as men and lesbians does

that is much better.

so I do want to be "productive" with my penis, it is still a god-given-"gift" and i need to use it - for good.as what i have written above,seriously i do want to have a child it would not be to particular either it would be a girl or a boy.so the problem would arise here.I want to have a child , but im afraid of vagina.....and how is that? how would that be?.....hmmm i think i would be able to decide when i crossed the bridge. but im considering artificial insemination , divertional activities, getting drunk , barbiturates , and well..... enjoying it.