is the love bug lost?

okey ,im gay, this is the 100th time i posted that line on my blog, ya know just to clear things up. Im gay , Im nineteen and im officially single since when?- when my mother blew me out. that was not a disgusting fact at all, or maybe i just got used to it, ya know the word "immunity" . but then again the hearts month is back again and it makes me feel "unloved" again. february is the worst month the sweet mother of god have created and valentines is the worst word that ever landed on the dictionary. is the hatred very obvious? ohkay fine hatred is not the word maybe jealousy. ill admit it. im jealous to angelina that she have brad pitt, im jealous with edward that he have bella and bella have jacob, im jealous to everybody who have someone to gigle with love and hugs. why cant someone publish a loveless-friendly calendar where february is totally erased. ugh that little chubby stupid creature namely cupid will hugely pay a lot to me. is the lovebug dead or Was it confuse on the way to me and gets lost . why cant that lovebug bite me, im offering myself to be bitten, heller!.
okay , maybe im to overreacting, cause obviously im not the only "gay" in the world and not all "gay" are single some have what they so called "partners". maybe its not my time. maybe its not really meant to be. i really dont have any idea right now. but all i know is that its valentines again and im still single. gosh that sounds so awfull