moi unconventional gay

im "gay"; frustrating to admit but yes im gay but id rather be labeled as "human" than being called as one. its not that im not proud or open to the reality, its just that ive encountered a lot of discomfort in trying hard to act gay. when i was a little younger i come into weird question which is to irritating on my eardrum like

hey aren't you gay?,then why do you eat double cheeseburger ? - what? i really cant figure out guys questioning me or should i say forcing me to act gay.

ive also encountered some question asking me for some head -

hoy bakla gusto mo? - that guy was really tipsy that time. good for me i wasnt drunk or else. - well to set the record no blowjob at all.

i dont really know why am i different from other gay.
-i walk like a straight man
-i talk like a straight man (some times)
-i eat huge meals
-i wear mens clothing - and i hate bra and miniskirts
-i hang up with guys
-i hang up with girls
-i rarely hung up with my colleges(gay)-cause they keep on questioning me.
-i wear briefs;and they are skull printed
-i like punk rock band (greenday,goodcharlotte,simple plan)
-i hate hannah montana
-i like cars - and they are not pink
-i like action films
-i love sneakers - and not stilettos
-i have "on-the-bed' hair
-i cheat on school
-i say bad words
-i cut classes
-i go late at class
-i burb in front of many people
-im not conservative
-not dancing
-not singing
-not acting


in totality im a total opposite of a filipino gay
and did i mention i love playstation.

what i hate about conventional gay
-to girly
-to smooth to eat
-to pink
-painful sole in stilettos
-to impressive
-to proud
-to girly walk
-wigs?
-makeup
-makeup
-makeup
-long hair - i hate long hair
-gay lingo - am i on mars?
-legally blond