when everything doesnt feels right.

okay. i need a few seconds to take a deep breath. one. two. three. whew...
so, how do i start.
the reason that it took me a quite time to woof is because....okay its not "quite" its "long" . long is the proper term, long time. its because ahm , ive been busy with cathode ray fantasies. i lie,im not really a clever liar.
so the whole truth is that I've undergone a saga of tragic melancholia, but not that "tragic", im born exaggerated. anyways this oldy computer of my brother has been hospitalized resulting to me suffering a two month net-less-ness. those suffering days are gone.
the whole truth aside from the first one is because ive been burning my eyelid on hospital doors waiting for a seizure or gunshot wound or birth deliveries anything would do. unfortunately my two weeks of nocturnal life had been turned into a garbage can. ANd im inaantuk na.