a cholera infected brain

i do posses enough(few) emotions and standards on a typical day ,but that doesnt make me autistic or whatever, dont get me wrong, cause i really dont have anything with being autistic . but mostly i ravage my nerve by gathering drastic opinion about how sure i am about my equilibrium,pertaining absolutely on my mentality.

well....
basing on my past experiences Ive done enough weird things that could give me the license to claim my Mr. autistic sash.

ahhm... the most embarrassing that i could remember was when i dance on the middle of a department store as my bodies response to a lavish song. and take note that was 50% off sale day - a bunch of people was there.(agh!)

and currently I was on duty at the operating room. i really didnt take my breakfast that day but i was really am very excited to go on duty . the climax- i almost touch every inch of unsterilized materials . why cause i almost lost my mind due naussea and the result i was sent out.(this was so embarrassing).

actually i really cannot remember all the stupidity ive done. but i do consider the fact that i might be infected by cholera just like edward cullen.

my late early post

ive been really diffused for the last present week of the month.why?
cause seriously ive been busy roaming the big city- nope not new york, i mean Manila.
ive stayed there for the past two weeks and i really seriously doesn't have time to visit the net and post a blog .

and what the hell did i do over the city?
-well aside from i waste time providing free service at a certain hospital, i hilariously raid divisoria . ive spent 3 rocking days actually 4 going 168, tutuban and sidewalks- it was pure heaven for prices , and pure trash on its smell. good thing i have sipon that week.

anyways just posted to say" hey! im still alive"
anyways 2- ive started to read breaking dawn - and currently on chapter 5.

moi recent photo edits

a year of tears and liquors

its my birthday and im kinda bit annoyed when its my birthday cause i hate reading my messages saying the same old thing "happy birthday" . same old songs- its really a jerky world and im a jerky guy.

anyways ive been inspired or the right word is urging to post a blog,since this day is the only one i have without a crossmark on the almost expired calendar, but i really have nothing to right.

well let me just say its my birthday again,and im suicidal
im so tired with school life and tremendous examinations.
so to lighten up my spirit by making a list of fun things i had this year.

GOOD THING/naughty things.

> im now a junior college
> i was broken hearted - and im loving it.
> i attempted suicide- and i failed not because i was broken hearted asshole. its for some other reasons.
> ive learned how to drink liquor
> ive made it to top............i don want to mention this.
> i bought a new phone
> i had this funny new discovery... and its censored.
> i assisted on a delivery , maternal delivery.
> i appreciated life.as well as shoes
> i have watched new moon and i died
> im nineteen - and its legal.


well thats for now. happy holidays

moi love to good charlotte

its been a long time, maybe about 2 or 3 years ago ive already encountered good charlotte on the airways ; but hey recently while strolling on a mall a not so particular song was played .

i totally fell to the band ; aside from joel maden - they freak me out.

moi unconventional gay

im "gay"; frustrating to admit but yes im gay but id rather be labeled as "human" than being called as one. its not that im not proud or open to the reality, its just that ive encountered a lot of discomfort in trying hard to act gay. when i was a little younger i come into weird question which is to irritating on my eardrum like

hey aren't you gay?,then why do you eat double cheeseburger ? - what? i really cant figure out guys questioning me or should i say forcing me to act gay.

ive also encountered some question asking me for some head -

hoy bakla gusto mo? - that guy was really tipsy that time. good for me i wasnt drunk or else. - well to set the record no blowjob at all.

i dont really know why am i different from other gay.
-i walk like a straight man
-i talk like a straight man (some times)
-i eat huge meals
-i wear mens clothing - and i hate bra and miniskirts
-i hang up with guys
-i hang up with girls
-i rarely hung up with my colleges(gay)-cause they keep on questioning me.
-i wear briefs;and they are skull printed
-i like punk rock band (greenday,goodcharlotte,simple plan)
-i hate hannah montana
-i like cars - and they are not pink
-i like action films
-i love sneakers - and not stilettos
-i have "on-the-bed' hair
-i cheat on school
-i say bad words
-i cut classes
-i go late at class
-i burb in front of many people
-im not conservative
-not dancing
-not singing
-not acting


in totality im a total opposite of a filipino gay
and did i mention i love playstation.

what i hate about conventional gay
-to girly
-to smooth to eat
-to pink
-painful sole in stilettos
-to impressive
-to proud
-to girly walk
-wigs?
-makeup
-makeup
-makeup
-long hair - i hate long hair
-gay lingo - am i on mars?
-legally blond

moi new moon experience - a dirty verdict

Catherine Hardwicke is a much better director than Chris Weitz
catherine shows all extremes and falls on twilight
while weitz show only flaws

what i hate on the movie

I hate it when edwards exposure was only 20 minutes in the total movie - ihateit
I hate it when they dindt show how alice cullen steal the Porsche 911 turbo
I hate it when they didnt show edward thought of charlie going to the funeral of harry clearwater
I hate it when jane volturris hair is brunnete on the other side
I hate it when people on the cinema keeps shouting JACOB black - damn it,.

anyways looking forward for ECLIPSE